Results of the scan - 22nd June

I returned to the hospital on 22nd June.   Miranda greeted myself and Janice.   I just wanted her to spit her words out.   She said that the cancer hadn't spread anywhere else.  She did add though there was couple of spots of something on my lung (not sure which one) but she followed this up with she wasn't concerned about them, but would do another scan in 3 months.   I was sooooo relieved.   

What Miranda said next did surprise me.  She asked if I'd like a therapeutic breast reduction given the size of my breasts.   I was quite blown away by this, and almost felt like i'd been offered a prize and became excited!!   I looked at Janice and then back at Miranda.  Questions were asked did I suffer back pain with my boobs or other problems and I said no not really.  The only problem with titty was finding bras that fitted well.   It was suggested I give it some thought and I agreed.           

On the wall, there were dates of surgeries throughout July.   The middle of July (16th) was mentioned first, but because I’d said I might be interested in the breast reduction, that was not going to be possible, because there wouldn’t be time to have a counselling appointment where I’d be shown images of surgery results.   So it was most likely going to be the end of July.   That did concern me, because in my mind the cancer was growing minute by minute spreading through my body like a fire.  AND I JUST WANTED IT OUT OF MY BODY.   

Miranda reassured that if she felt the operation couldn't wait until end of July, she wouldn't be suggesting it.    

Miranda wrapped up the appointment saying I'd been given a lot of information already, so I should take time to digest it all.   Jackie, another breast care nurse took myself and Janice into the crying room.   This was to allow me to ask any more questions that I had.  

I actually felt quite excited about the idea of a breast reduction ..... think of the pretty bras I could start wearing, think of the money I could save on not having to get super large specialist bras.... but at the same time, I was thinking mmm I want the 16th July for my operation.   

I messaged my mom and sista to let them know it hadn't spread.    I'd gotten caught up in the breast reduction, and that I feel became the focus of not only the appointment that day, but also the next few days.     

I felt quite annoyed at this, as I saw it, having hijacked the main focus of the appointment which was the operation.   I understand why they offered it.   What am amazing gift for someone who whose bust size does affect them negatively.    But for me, I decided not to do that.  I thought about the practicalities in that I'd also have to then return however long after to have right titty done as well.