Feeling quite heavy today and yesterday. Had a busy weekend at mom's and also celebrated a 19 year old's birthday, No 1 Nephew.
I returned home on Monday and have been slowly unpacking bags, and putting stuff away and the flat looks a tad messy. But that's ok. I'll do it slowly and in my own time.
I did call the chemo ward today as I felt like I was coming down with a cold, I have a rather large mouth ulcer on roof of my mouth, and my mouth (roof of) looks a different colour and I've been having headaches for a few days. Spoke to Sue who said come up and we'll check you out. So i went up, had blood tests done which showed my white blood count is low as expected, but not so low as to be concerned nor require intervention. I will continue to take paracetamol for the head. This being the first round of chemo, I'm cautious and unusually for medical people, they told me to ring!!!! Heaven for those cursed with health anxiety! I did discuss with the doctor that I wasn't sure if it was my chronic fatigue flaring up or the chomo, or a mixture of both. The truth is I'll never know and I don't need to. I just need to keep myself as well as I can and today that included cancelling a trip out so I can keep myself safe otherwise my chemo next week could be cancelled if my bloods aren't ok.
Now, it turns out that during chemo one's hair can hurt ..... yes you read that right. My hair may hurt. Today, it hurts. Infact I think that's what the headaches have been. Apparently the hair follicles die off and mine are doing so on the right hand side of head. I have also had some small bunches of hair come out which doesn't concern me. I will happily shave it off when I need to; the bright side is I've never had a bald head as a hair style and believe me I've tried mannyyyyyy styles, perms, colours. So bald will be a new one. It will also save me money on hair dressers.
So I sit here now, with a general feeling of unwellness. I am not panicked or anxious just tired. So I'm going to go lie down and maybe do a meditation.
I do have new plants to put in the Belfast Sink, but they may have to wait until tomorrow.
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